DJ: Then versus Now






Utsukushiki Zankoku na Sekai

Utsukushiki Zankoku na Sekai by Yoko Hikasa from Attack on Titan















Vidoes keep getting deleted of this awesome song. Here are two links that I found of the long version.
I have Nippon and English lyrics on the bottom.











Original / Romaji LyricsEnglish Translation

1
Sono yume wa kokoro no ibasho
Inochi yori koware yasuki mono
Nando demo sutete wa mitsuke
Yasuraka ni saa nemure
Myakuutsu shoudou ni negai wa okasare
Wasurete shimau hodo mata omoidasu yo

That dream is where my heart belongs,
and it's something more fragile than my life.
Again and again, I abandoned and then rediscovered it.
Now sleep peacefully.
With my wish being ravished by my pounding heartbeats,
as soon as I'm on the verge of forgetting it, I immediately recall it.


2
Kono utsukushiki zankoku na sekai de wa
Mada ikiteiru koto "Naze" to tou bakari de...
Aa bokutachi wa kono tsuyosa yowasa de
Nani wo mamoru no darou mou risei nado
Nai naraba

In this beautiful cruel world,
we merely keep on asking "why" we're alive and living...
Ah, with this strength and this weakness,
if we no longer possess any rationality,
just what are we protecting?


3
Ano sora wa setsunai no darou
Maiagaru hai to shinkirou
Atatakai kotoba ni kogoe
Hitoshirezu saa nemure
Nebatsuku gensou ni nageki wa kakusare
Chigitte shimau hodo mata karamitsuku yo

Isn't that sky depressing?
The ashes and mirages swirl up in the sky.
Freeze solid to the warm words,
now sleep discreetly.
With my sigh being hid away by my clingy fantasies,
as soon as it's about to break free, it's pinned down again.

4
Kono utsukushiki zankoku na sekai de wa
Tada shinde yuku koto "Mate" to kou bakari de...
Aa bokutachi wa kazamidori tobesu ni
Shinjitsu wa uso yori kirei ka douka
Wakaranai

In this beautiful cruel world,
we merely keep on begging death to wait a little longer...
Ah, no different from the flightless weathercock,
we will not understand
whether truths are prettier than lies.


5
Moshimo bokura uta naraba
Ano kaze ni ho wo age
Mayowazu ni tada dareka no moto e
Kibou todoke ni yuku no ni

If only we were songs,
we would be able to sail at full speed in the wind,
and bring hope without fail
to someone out there.


6
Kono utsukushiki zankoku na sekai de wa
Mada ikiteiru koto "Naze" to tou bakari de...
Aa bokutachi wa kono tsuyosa yowasa de
Nani wo mamoru no darou mou risei nado
Nai naraba


In this beautiful cruel world,
we merely keep on asking "why" we're alive and living...
Ah, with this strength and this weakness,
if we no longer possess any rationality,
just what are we protecting?



Long live the caregiver

Long live the caregiver

when i was a kid i was very very sick all of the time and it grew into a lifestyle of "needy playing sick" mentality. when i would feel low as a child, i would "play the sick card" and suck up all the attentions that i would receive like a vacuum... and this stayed with me thru middle and high school and even into my twenties. and it was wrong of me to ask that of my people: that they would be subjected to my demands.

in my twenties, this realization led to a change in me to become more tough and to need no one - an almost exact opposite pendulum swing the other way... and that also was an unbalanced and unhealthy way to view the situation. so then i swung in another direction - the direction of self-loathing and guilt for becoming sick was not a good one either, but healing would eventually come.

so here i am today, after a terrible double hyper extension in my left leg of my knee and ankle and large toe, find myself in the worst pain of my adult-hood and the second most painful time in my life (after i broke my tailbone when i was twelve) needing my wife and asking her for things. and i feel so guilty when i am doing it. i feel like i am demanding unreasonable things of her... "this and that, and oh can you get this too".

the feeling started creeping up on me last night after a five hour emergency room sit-in, and it is attacking my mind this morning. yes, i "need" her, but why do i feel guilty? if i "NEED" these things, then shouldn't i just go about it and accept it when she does me these "favors"? are they "favors" at all? isn't this what love is? is this what marriage is?

i know many families who have one person or even two people in the household that are ill and take up a lot of the families resources and demands to fulfill their daily comforts. it is the love of a wife or husband, or mother or child that often fulfills these daily tasks and it is in family that we should trust and turn to in times of ongoing distress. often it is the love of our loved ones that keeps us alive.

"in sickness and in health" was in my vows when i pledged my love and myself to her... so why do i feel bad about asking her to fulfill hers? life and respect are growing inside me, more and more each day for this beautiful person that God has given me.

dearest care-givers: hats off to you and your health. it is in you that we, the sickly, do trust. we need you, we love you, we respect you and we are so very incredibly thankful that you are there, that you answered our call, and that you find value in us as "yours". i know you in real life, as well i also know those are the recipients of your love. you are both strong. never despise the other, but let this time of uncomfort enrich your relationship and deepen your resolve to love and do good in your home and in the world.

pauly hart
tuesday, april 15th, 2014
reposted from https://www.facebook.com/JesuslovesPaulyHart

Amber Alert Droid

amber alerts driving you nuts on your droid?

go to

Messaging App
Emergency message settings

and turn it off.

What is this... Communist Russia that we have this factory installed? Who are we? Keepers of the destiny of all children in our state? Silly and preposterous. Look after those God called you to.

But if you really care enough about children three hundred miles away that are not yours and you will never meet... and if you don't mind being woken up at 2AM with the NUCLEAR FALLOUT foley and scaring the crap out of you... then leave it on.

Problem Solving... When you're the expert.

I worked for a company like this once.

For three years.

I was the expert and was underwent terrible tragedies on a daily basis.

And somehow, I knew, that in the back of my mind, the bosses knew that I was right, but were "forced" to go along with the party line of their bosses.

Three years.

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